Finding hope through the pain.

It has been a struggling and painful couple of weeks, even months. My family has been hit with so much. First, a family member gets diagnosed with cancer, then I had a small accident that put me out of commission for a couple of weeks (severe ankle sprain). Then in the most recent couple of days we have been struggling with our teenagers. One suffering from depression and the other on making poor choices that can affect his health and future.

Now What?

How do we find the answers? Why is this happening to our family? Why me, why us? Where do I find the solution? Who do I turn to? I, cannot be the only in the world that struggle with these questions during our trying moments.

I have learned that we cannot answers the why's, where's, who and the how's. We just don't have the ability to find those answers on our own.

It took a long time through this process to find answer or to just even find peace. I came to a point were I felt so hopeless. I felt as if I ran into a dead end. There was not way out. There were no answers. Well, so I thought.

Then I found a very special devotional (using the YouVersion app).

The plan's title is "Grow in Prayer!" by Harvest Ministries. When I saw this plan, I was encouraged to open it. The first day was an overwhelming day. The first bible verse in the plan was Philippians 4: 6-7

Don't worry about anything; instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. The you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ.

This hit home for me. Because, at that point in time all m heart needed was peace. Yes, PEACE! I was in a stage in my life where I was spiritually, emotionally, mentally and physically drained. I felt as though it was too much for me to handle and I did not want to keep on going through it anymore.

But, I did not give up. I did exactly what the bible sent me to do. I prayed. Even though I did not have answers right away, I still prayed. There were times where I would sit in bed and just speak to God. Not asking why, not asking him why me, but asking for strength and understanding for my current storm.

After a while, I began to feel peace. What an amazing feeling that was.

It was not rapid, but that peace came along. My problems did not rapidly disappear, but that understanding to work through them and the strength to endure them, did come along. I continue to thank God for his constant coverage of Grace and Mercy. If I can provide you with any piece of advice all I can say is:

Pray about everything and rely and wait for God. Remember to let go and let God. Never stop praying. - 1 Thessalonians 5:17

Update

The member diagnosed with cancer, is now celebrating 3 months of being cancer free. Thank God. My teenagers are still struggling through their storm, but are trying very hard to rely on God.

On a side note

I have not posted in a very long time. Starting this week I will be posting weekly devotionals, more quick and easy recipes, and some other fun mommy tips. Keep checking in.